Been A While Again

Rain, sinus, headache, stiffness, pain, major weight loss due to a lengthy bout with IBS.....Its times like these I lay here unable to sleep going crazy in my head thinking of what I need to do, have to do, should do, am expected to do, feel too overwhelmed to do, want to do, wish I could still do....just so much yet I'm lying here unable to sleep knowing tomorrow will be unproductive b/c I'm not resting tonight. Such a vicious cycle. It also seems the more I have/need to do, the less rest I'm able to get. Like an anxiety. I have to admit I'm intrigued by this weight loss even though I know its not in a healthy manner, not that I can help it. I guess its so interesting b/c this is the first time in almost 25 yrs. I've weighed close to the high school weight. Anyway, I know it'll eventually add back up when the IBS settles down. This isn't the first time this has happened. I think I'll put my ear buds in and try some hypnotherapy to get some sleep. There are some great free apps for this. Wish me luck. G'nite!

No rain but tons of pain

There's only been about a 30% chance of rain in this part of northwest Alabama but there's been a good 100% chance of pain in my upper back, shoulders, head, and neck. Also, the legs haven't felt so great either. My husband wants me to try the cactus extract that is supposed to be good for inflammation among other things. I would love some feedback on the issue. I do know I'm not going to jump on that multi level marketing stuff. Would like to buy local. Those people have to look you in the face and tell you whether or not a product they sell works.

Waking up in pain

What a lovely way to start the day. I have a little bit of stress on me b/c I plan on driving 2.5 hours to evict some tenants which has caused me to wake up with such a headache and my whole upper back and shoulders in so much pain. I NEVER start the day with a pain pill, but today has to be an exception. It just hurts too bad.
On top of this stress I have my 14 year old daughter who has about 5% empathy and 95% selfishness. I know at this age that's a teen girls for you but she's getting beyond sassy and going straight for smart ass. My 19 year old daughter doesn't help b/c to them I guess I'm just being mellow dramatic. On top of that my husband wants to turn it into a "girl thing" and not get pulled in the middle. As I recall he was in the middle of making the freaking kids and had NO problem with it then. I'm sure I'm not the only one who gets treated like they are now lazy b/c they sit on their smart phone or the computer half the day. Of course, if you're like me, and can't go out into the sun any more than necessary b/c of lupus or stay indoors when its cold b/c of fibromyalgia, where else are you going to shop??? And most likely when I'm internet shopping, its for the smart ass herself.
I'm afraid I have fallen prey to lazy parenting (usually not by choice so much as health) but this is beginning to cost me dearly. Then to top if off, Daddy wants to stay out of it and sister wants to compound it. (Let me add in daddy's defense he does work on the railroad and is gone half the time and asleep a lot of the other). This of course, is when I want to run away. Run away from people wanting, needing, draining, hurting, and I feel literally killing me....it just sucks b/c they give it no thought. I don't want my family to suffer yet I'd give anything for them to feel like me for one week. That's all. No more. I would never wish this permanently on anyone but one week (all at the same time would really do it) just so they could get it into their heads b/c apparently me just saying it is like an old woman nagging. All they hear is "blah, blah, blah! "
Well, I think the pain pill is kicking in a bit so I'm going to try and rest...or should I say, "be my lazy self."

Been a while

Well, it's been a while since a post. Not much has changed I'm afraid. It's the beginning of summer and I find myself once again envying all the fun my friends are having in the sun. Had insomnia last night. Been a while since that's happened also. Still, had a pretty good day for lack of sleep. Trying to fall asleep now. Would be easier with less pain in the hips and thighs...it rained earlier, never fails. Well, lets get to sleep now I hope. G'night!

Busy weekend=pain

I had a wonderful weekend w/ my family but all the activity seems to take a day or two to get over. Lots of upper back pain/burning, headaches, stomach aches, muscle weakness. Also finding it harder and harder to avoid the sun. Gotta' get to bed. I've procrastinated on the taxes and have to get them done before I go to work!!!

Just another day

Getting over the bronchitis. Got to rest this morning after not sleeping at all last nite. Thankfully I've had a good fibro/lupus day. Only a small amount of upper back pain.

More about me...my kids are breaking the bank. One girl (16) sings (voice lessons) and needs money for other stuff constantly. She thinks nothing of asking for a $25 check for something one day then a $60 check the next. Don't get me wrong, she doesn't get gas and spending money like a lot of other kids. Heck, I can't afford to give her any more than I do. I have to give her kuddos for working for her gas and spending money. My other daughter (12) takes dance lessons and is on the company dance team. Translation...more money. Dance comps involve fees, food, and hotels.

I guess I'm telling you guys this so maybe you can relate. This is one of the main sources of my stress. I guess almost everyone can agree with that though. I'm not as special as I think I am huh? lol.

Well, let's hope for a good day tomorrow...night!

April 7, 10

I actually had a pretty good f.m./lupus day but the sinus infection I had last week, and thought was gone, had actually just settled into my lungs for a sore throat and lovely case of bronchitis. I went to the doc for a steriod shot which included toradol (along w/ a bag full of other meds and an antibiotic rx). On the way out the door the gals in the office warned me that the toradol may cause some pretty achy legs and to take some ibuprofen. Well, a couple hours later I had to go to work and eventually my legs started aching. When I got home I took 800 mg. ibuprofen, then took my a.b., Mucinex, some kind of rx decongestant, my f.m./lupus meds, and finally huffed some of the Advair I was given. By the time I went to bed the pain in my legs was so bad that I just couldn't sleep. I've been up all night w/ the pain and coughing. A couple hours ago I remembered I had some good hydrocodone cough syrup and took some. I could probably have fallen asleep but my daughter has a field trip to get up early for and who wants to go to sleep for only an hour or two? After I get her off to school I'm gonna get some rest. Thank God I have no plans for the day so I can hopefully get a good rest in. Wish me luck.

I know I don't have any followers yet but I do hope and pray that you all have a blessed, feel good day.